Last night was another weigh-in. The weigh-in where I thought I would register no loss, or even a gain... and I showed a loss. Only a 0.6 lbs. loss, but that's a loss. For sure, it could've been due to the nervous sweating I was doing on my way to the WW office, but I'll take what I can get.
I broke down and got some take-out last night from Crocodile Cafe in Glendale. I got their Tequila Lime Fettuccini plate with garlic mashed potatoes and bread.
I ate all of it.
I stuffed myself silly on it, appeasing whatever weird cravings I had earlier. I forced all the potatoes down. These were more than healthy portions, mind you. I ate up all the bread and cleaned my plate. Afterwards, the physical effects were pretty ugly.
I felt my stomach engorged, as if it were going to explode under any further pressure. But emotionally, I was numb. I had no ill-feelings about the meal. I had no good feelings about the meal. It just was.
I woke up several times in the middle of the night with terrible heartburn. I had to get up and sip down cool water to get back to sleep. I tossed and turned and woke with every little sound. I looked in the mirror at about 3am and saw dark circles under my eyes, but my face was puffy, and I felt miserable.
It was an amazing lesson.
Before, my body was so accustomed to eating huge portions - I mean HUGE portions! After narrowing down my food intake over the last 7 weeks, it's been a kind of detox - and the effects of overeating are really swift and discomforting.
And that's a blessing.
I won't soon be engaging in another "eating spree", I don't want to feel again what I felt last night - it just wasn't worth it.
Posted by weezgrrl at March 24, 2004 09:58 AMSobering, isn't it? I feel that same way most evenings unless I gulp some Maalox Max before bed. No one should have to live that way and I'm really glad that you're getting back on track.
Posted by: Denise at March 25, 2004 09:28 AM