excess baggage

week 13 weigh-in report

Blech. I was not in a good mood yesterday. I had some bad stuff floating around in my head. I had a dream last night wheere I got into a fight with the unnamed co-worker mentioned yesterday in my angry post. I remember feeling really embarrassed about my actions in my dream, so I think it's time I stop harboring all this anger towards her. But she was here this morning, smacking her gum. I can even hear her now (smack, smack smack). (Breathe in, breathe out). Relaaax...

Okay now, on to the weigh-in report. I lost again! 1.2 lbs this week. It's been thirteen weeks now, so I think any "beginner's luck" has worn away by now and I can honestly say, damn! i'm doing a great job! I'm averaging at least a pound or more a week. It's definitely slow-going, as I have about 100 total pounds to lose (although I haven't yet decided on an ultimate goal target-weight yet). If I'm down 50 lbs. total by my one-year mark, I'll feel very accomplished (of course, I want to be down 50 lbs. by Christmas time!).

I seem to have come to a nice balance with my eating habits. I'm obviously not a strict adherent to the WW plan: I don't get enough fruit or vegetables, I can always drink more water, and a formal exercise regime will need to restart in a few weeks (after the back has a bit more time to heal properly). And if I have a desire to eat something, I just eat it, and get over it. But it seems to be working for me so far.

I recently dug up an old WW membership book from 1999 or something, and noticed that I have exceeded both my weeks on plan and weight lossed since then. It was a good feeling to dig that up. I didn't immediately think, "Oh, if I had only stuck with the plan, I'm so stupid for not sticking to it then, I could've been at goal weight by now fer shure". Nope, my immediate feeling was accomplishment. Woo. Hoo.

I'm feeling very positive about the plan I've assembled (with the help of Weight Watchers, obviously). I strongly believe I have the tools and capability to get down to a considerably lower weight and considerably higher fitness level. Go me.