I've been a bad, bad girl. I've been totally out of control, eating quarts of ice cream and whole pizzas and mexican food to my heart's delight. The unfortunate bit is that my heart and my metabolic system are woefully not in sync.
So, I've gone "OP" (off-program). I feel like a total dolt about it. It's been a wasteful few weeks. My plan is to go back to my Weight Watchers meeting tonight to discuss my issues with my leader. What are my issues, anyways?
I suppose my cravings are the bane of my existence, and perhaps a bit of boredom had set in with the program. I don't know. I think I let the fact that I could have a couple of meals a week that were not-exactly-healthy get totally out of control.
I'm lucky, though - it's not like I've gained 10 lbs. or anything from my fit of gluttony. Maybe 2 or 3, but not 10. So it will be good for me to get involved again, but I have to admit, my enthusiasm is lagging behind.
It's my obsessive-compulsive thing doing me a disservice: when I'm focused on something, I become totally obsessed with that, and it becomes central to my existence, so the work gets done. But when it's not the absolute center of all things, it gets pushed to the side, and convenience becomes the over-riding factor. (Sigh.) Maybe tonight will be the kick-in-the-butt that I need.
Wow, I hear ya. Somehow I gained around 5 pounds in a few days. And I've been on program! It gets so frustrating at times, but hang in there. Just know that there are LOTS of people out here rooting for you, even if you don't know it.
Posted by: Cat at July 6, 2004 05:10 PMthatnks for the words of encouragement. it's rough right now, but i need perspective - it's been almost *easy* for me up until about a month ago. maybe it's just one of those bumps in the road that we all hit occassionally.
again, thanks for the comment. it was really needed right about now!
Posted by: julie (me) at July 6, 2004 10:59 PMThe ups and downs are part of the journey we're all on!! I often think that this should easier the longer I do it, but somehow, it's just the opposite. Hang in there chickie!!
Posted by: Peg at July 7, 2004 10:24 AM