December 13, 2006

christmas time is here. happiness and cheer.

My blogging discipline has died a terrible death, however this morning I was motivated enough to change my banner to the tried-and-true holiday-themed one you see above. I love Christmas-time. I love Christmas music, I love all those terrible television commercials with people dressed up in scarves and gloves, frolicking in fake snow and flogging everyone to BUY BUY BUY. I love fretting over what to BUY BUY BUY for those closest to me, and I equally love wondering what will be under the Christmas tree with my name written on it.

See, for me, Christmas isn't about Jesus's birthday. It's not a religious holiday in the slightest, from my perspective. Or maybe it's a religion of a different sort. For me, it's about recreating the wonder I had as a child - waking up to find a bicycle from Santa Clause, or unwrapping a much-desired Etch-A-Sketch and playing with it ALL WEEK LONG, enraptured by its magical properties, or watching for a parent's reaction to the weird pottery thing I bought for them (with money they gave me) from the annual holiday sale located in my elementary school's library.

Let me not forget the all-important element of decoration to the holiday. I remember the warmth of the illumination provided by the festive lights against a backdrop of green needles and tinsel, when only they and the fire in the fireplace lit the room the night before Christmas. I remember how safe and warm I felt in the living room, drooling just thinking about the bounty to be had the next morning, as we set out cookies and milk for the big red guy.

I've been lax about being decorative lately. Sure, I have the Charlie Brown Pathetic Tree, and I have the complete set of Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer figurines - but they're still boxed and bagged and dusty, no doubt. I guess I don't really feel like I'm in a place now where I can make Christmas time my own yet. I crave being able to have my own place, to go out and get a tree, to decorate it and the (likely) small room holding it - I crave being able to turn down the lights and turn up the Chipmunks Christmas album, or to sit and watch the holiday classics on DVD that I've dutifully purchased, waiting for the chance to relax by a fire and eat gingerbread cookies cuddled up next to the one I love.

That's not quite here yet. And while I enjoy the Christmases of the recent past and present, there's this ideal that I find myself waiting for. But I think I'm really close, closer than I've ever been... so hope is not lost. For this year, I will keep my favorite holiday music close at hand, keep my favorite people closer, and be happy, because that's what it's all about.


posted by julie at December 13, 2006 09:17 AM

things people have said

And... don't forget when your favorite babysitter would come by dressed in a Gumby costume! :) Happy Holidays Julie! Hope Santa brings you all that you wish for! Jen

so said: Jen at December 14, 2006 07:24 AM



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