March 30, 2007

What Boredom Brings

Things at work have been picking up during the month of March - which is great because February was a bit stark. Even though the orders have been streaming in, I always get to a point where all the received orders have been placed, and all my billing has been processed, and I'm left to my own devices until someone needs something. This is, currently, a not-so-great situation for me. Why? Because it puts my focus back on the largest thing in my life right now: the summer relocation to Seattle.

You might say "Don't worry about it! You're still several months away!" But my mind doesn't operate like that. Some with a marketing-bent might call it a detail-oriented personality, but most would call it obsession. Big questions like Where are we going to live? and Where am I going to find work? and How much money can I expect to make? pop into my head, and I find myself searching seattle.craigslist.org in vain for listings that I'm powerless to act on right now. It makes for that unsettling feeling of not being on terra firma, and when it comes to my personal and professional future, I find that difficult to deal with.

I've sent out a few cold emails to some facilities of interest, sent my resume out to a contact supplied by someone from Microsoft (the contact has since not gotten back to me), and even responded to a Craigslist job posting that I thought I would be great for... in August... that will go over well with their hiring department!

And on the residence front, I've already begun scouting out potential apartment complexes and neighborhoods, trying to get a feel for where we might like to live and what we might expect to pay in those places. Heck, I've even contacted other bloggers who were in a similar situation (relocated to Seattle to work at Microsoft and eventually settled in one of the complexes I'm interested in), seeking advice and recommendations. Before we can find that permanent place to inhabit, however, we'll need to know how much we can afford, and to do that, we'll need to know how much I'll be bringing to the table (Erik's income is already a known quantity). We've drawn up a budget spreadsheet with a variety of potentialities for my income, and at least I know that I won't need to achieve the impossible (making a wage equal to that I'm making now, harrumph) to be able to live nicely and still be able to sack away a good amount of savings for future housebuying...

...Oh, I could go on... But can you see why I need to keep myself occupied busily by other things? All of this wondering and worrying and what-ifs are not really helping any. I think Erik and I both have prepared ourselves for a lot of what's ahead of us - I've even over-prepared - but I need to work on letting it go. I'm just not there yet.


posted by julie at March 30, 2007 09:49 AM


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